another cold night in March

[I try to recover...but it's a different writing now]

I feel desperate and tired
See! that's exact the feeling I got last friday
At Friday we meet ,it was a pleasant date but it seems not so anymore.

After the meeting, though it started raining I still decide to ride my scooter home.
Taking off the coat, putting on my jacket,
I look more like a normal girl other than a graceful one.
With the cold wind blowing my face,I started to feel alive and really fresh.
Why should I try to pretend try to be someone I'm not yet
Do I do it out of pressure ? out of my own will? for you or for me?or for the one I thought might care?
It means nothing.....right ? No one cares ....it means nothing to anyone except me
Though I have little expectation you might notice.......
You are a perfect living your perfect life
and WHAT ABOUT ME? WHAT ABLOUT ME?
...........though I know you didn't care about me in any single day.........

I should stop murmuring and complaining
stop thinking about you talking about you
keep from the chance that we meet
but the most effective way is
how can I get over you?