I rename this document Introduction to Myself.
It is not only a self-introduction, but an introduction to myself—
for myself, and made by myself.
Gradually, step by step, I come to understand myself more.
This is not a sudden change,
but a slow sedimentation over years.
When I look back, my view grows deeper and broader.
I see from more layers, more aspects, more perspectives,
and truths begin to unfold.
Why did I make those choices?
Why did I terminate and leave,
making a sharp rupture in my own heart and in others’,
yet remain cold-bloodedly determined?
What did I lose?
And at the same time,
how did those choices support me—
mentally, physically, financially?
How did they also drive me to madness,
and how did they wound me?
These tangled thoughts,
slowly combed through and set into motion,
turn into relief,
and into a deep reconciliation with myself.
Yes. I recognize you.
I reconcile with you.
And now, you may live with me.
This is a supreme freedom—
calm, gentle, and profoundly comfortable.
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