Friday, September 26, 2025

Mindful Prayer

Here you are. 
From the beginning of this month, you’ve been quietly writing down your seasonal and annual visions. 
You began with an abstract idea, then a rough sketch—gradually weaving your plan with warp and weft, scripting and refining each step with care. This blueprint is made by you, and only for you.

Now, here you are—at the close of September. 
You’ve completed this week’s work. 
You deserve the effort you’ve given, and you deserve rest—both physical and spiritual. 
You deserve a quiet celebration in your heart—not for any specific reason, but simply because I’m proud of you. 
Proud of what you’ve done. 
Proud of who you are.

You’ve been granted a gift: Golden treasures gathered along the way. Stretch your arms toward the golden sunlight. 
Notice the golden leaves drifting to the ground, and the tiny golden blossoms blooming in the cracks of the pavement.

Now, prepare a warm cup of osmanthus tea to soothe your heart. Light a golden candle to guide your way. 
Drink in the warm blessing of abundance—let it comfort your body and soul. 
Keep writing your dreams in your golden notebook. 
Your dreams, radiant as gold, echo in my heart—and soon, they will become reality in your life.

Thursday, September 25, 2025

金秋 II

一個夢引來解析出我潛意識思考、感受的、需要的
又更接近了秋天一步
或許台灣並不覺得
但我心裡感覺到

秋天,是收穫的季節。

我給自己一份閃亮的金黃色期待,
尊貴、優雅、柔順、溫暖,
像陽光灑在落葉上,像金黃的稻穗,
提醒我:我的努力有重量,我的心值得珍惜。
我允許自己放慢腳步,
用柔軟的姿態擁抱生活,
用尊貴的眼光看待自己,
在日常中,感受並享受這份富有與豐盛。

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

開悟之舞

今天早上我在樓上的房間裡起來
陽光燦爛
我被我所收集的CD、文具圍繞
霎那間 我發覺我已經擁有在高中時、在這個房間裡生活時夢想的一切
我為了想像的未來的我的需要瘋狂地追逐
因為怕”未來的我”會需要
但現在的我其實什麼都不缺
真的什麼都不缺

現代生活的瘋狂在於
沒有時間 好好地深思
好好地沉澱 好好地把一些事情想清楚
一切都太快了
按下一個鍵就希望馬上得到回應
聽一句話就以為自己了解所有意思、完全明白、聽懂了
打斷後續搶著下結論
我們看著自己的眼睛根本無法分辨的高畫質電視
用著思考速度根本跟不上的高速網路
向無所不知、無所不能的聊天機器人問問題
剝奪自己的睡眠時間沉浸於聲光色彩之中迷失自我

如此的結果就是忙碌不已
忙著找更多事讓自己更忙
然後再找更多事讓自己”紓壓”
沒有勇氣面對空白和停歇
因為害怕
真的好害怕
在眾聲喧嘩之外
傾聽自己的聲音

但或許只有我
或許只有我 
還有少數的人看見
所以我們在我們的痛苦中掙扎著
努力想要找出一條路
我的痛苦無法緩解你的痛苦
你的痛苦也無法療癒我的痛苦
因為我們終究是不同的
幸福總歸相似
痛苦各有不同
多麼悲傷的詛咒

我想要變成樂觀的人
因為樂觀的人比較幸福
我知道呀
我知道呀
我想要呀
我想要呀
但我還是獨一無二的我
悲觀、慎思、多慮
或許在這一世我做了選擇
或許在生生世世我都是這樣
與萬物同喜或與萬物同悲我都做不到

人因有覺知而痛苦
開悟是毀滅的開始
毀滅舊的、不再適用、無明無知的我
重建新的我
只是過程好痛

Tuesday, August 26, 2025

詩文創作

 

《風花》

意義如風,轉瞬即逝;

意義如花,嬌柔脆弱;

意義如風花,翩翩飛舞而難以掌握。


Monday, August 25, 2025

處暑隨筆 - 我的植物教我的事

處暑已過,天氣依然熾熱,風卻忽然大了起來。站在風裡,我想起了陽台上的植物──洛神、番薯葉、薄荷……它們在搖曳中顯得脆弱,卻也讓我看到一種堅持。

過去的我,總期待風能快些停歇,仿佛只要外境安穩,生活就能自在。但今日看著植物,我忽然明白:風本就是季節的一部分,無可避免。真正能做的,不是祈求無風,而是讓莖葉更強壯,能夠抵擋、能夠承受。

生活亦然。無論是親子關係、伴侶間的摩擦,還是自我追尋的道路,風始終會來。但若能像植物一樣,在每一陣風吹拂中練習站立,那麼心也會慢慢長出筋骨,從脆弱中孕育出力量。

與其等待平靜,不如學會在風暴中呼吸。這或許就是秋天給我的第一堂課。

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2025/8/27

補記:
她還教我,即使一時無法抵擋需要到室內躲躲,休養生息,偃旗息鼓,也無妨。
終究還是有一天要回到室外的真實世界,在風暴中生存。
會更堅強的,會更堅強的,
即使葉面在強風中焦黑乾枯,也能逐漸站穩腳步,只要你想要。

Wednesday, August 13, 2025

異世界

颱風天總給我一個闖入異世界的感受
一下晴一下雨
一下烈日一下狂風
亂了平常的規律

正如同8:44在副都心站等車的我
跳脫了以往的規律
現在去哪裡?

在公司和家裡以外
不是員工也不是媽媽
幾番波折
終於做出家人放心,我也認可的選擇
掛著這些身份
貼上標籤
但,身分是可以拾起,也可以放下的
在這之間,我在哪裡?

從武廟路的電梯大樓游泳池往後倒
看到夏日的蔚藍天空
如果沒人發現
人生就此停止呢?
我究竟為何走這一遭?

這個漫長的夏天邁向秋天
總是令我特別糾結難解
實體的牢早已消滅
但心裡的牢還在層層拆解
不知會到哪一天

那些難以對他人說明
但對我很重要的
正常與不正常
解構與非解構
在我生命裡經過的那些人
夏秋之際
新學期正要開始
從幼稚園到小學
再從高中到大學
我讓他人滿意嗎?
讓我自己滿意嗎?

藍天白雲
綠樹台地
讓我躲一躲
讓我緩一緩
讓我喘一喘

10:26
結果我
在路上一邊哭一邊走
不是因為不想去上班
但觸動了什麼

我曾經經歷全身無力躺在地上,連哭都哭不出來,覺得自己人生毀滅了、完蛋了的時候
覺得現在這樣有正當工作,有好好照顧小孩,可以和顏悅色跟她說話的我,
已經超級努力了。

Tuesday, August 05, 2025

My Story

To me, civil, mechanical, and electrical engineering are disciplines deeply rooted in the physical world—working with matter, forces, and energy. From the solid and concrete to the abstract and conceptual, they rise gradually, layer by layer.

Computer science, on the other hand, steps further into the virtual realm, dealing with abstract systems, digital structures, and informational logic. Yet at their core, all of these disciplines are built upon the same universal mystery and scientific beauty, grounded in the foundational languages of mathematics, physics, and chemistry.

When I was younger, I once felt regret and even anger toward myself, thinking I had been forced to follow the expectations of others. But now I understand—I made the decision myself, for myself.

I'm proud of the person I’ve become, for enduring those hard, dark, and seemingly hopeless days. I stand by my decision to study engineering—specifically, electrical engineering—even when I was told, over and over, that it wasn’t a typical path for girls. I now see clearly that this was the right path for me.

At 17, I told myself: I love music, poetry, literature, languages, and history. But I am also deeply fascinated by the precision, systematic thinking, and practical application of science and engineering.

So today, I want to thank that brave young girl again—the one who struggled to find her path in the university jungle and to survive in a competitive, thorn-filled world. I’m still growing and evolving, constantly absorbing knowledge as though there were no limits. I am hungry for truth, swimming freely in an ocean of learning.

I am becoming the person I truly want to be—building a life that is both strong and solid, like a fortress, but with a heart that remains soft and free. Just like when I was a child: living joyfully, loved by the world, and completely free.

Mindful Prayer

Here you are.  From the beginning of this month, you’ve been quietly writing down your seasonal and annual visions.  You began with an abstr...