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歡樂的歌 哀傷的心情
我以為我原諒了自己
心中的某一個角落 卻依然泊泊的留著血
一等你醒來就要傳達的心情
就算不放微波爐 也不會冷卻
看著過去的自己 苦笑著

mew~

面對外界的紛紛擾擾
只想跟她兩個懶懶的在沙發上
徜徉在我們自己的小世界裡

最近沒事就會看貓版
是個充滿著各式各樣美貓的地方
發覺我家的貓比起來真的不算很漂亮
而且抱她超過30秒就開始掙扎
叫半天說不來就是不來
還會耍小性子躲在陽光室裡讓我們翻遍全家找
不過會在聽到開門的聲音時就跑來門口接我
會一邊唉唉叫撒嬌跑過來躺在我腳上睡覺
每天不嫌累不間斷的蹦蹦跳跳陪我們上樓下樓
對我來說 她是世界上獨一無二

四季

かわっている君　かわっているわたし　
そしてこの季節と重ねた思い出

其實是有點感動或慶幸也說不定
在時間之流載浮載沉的我和你
或許當時表現的不好
至少誠實的傳達了自己的心意
傷心過 消沉過 然後慢慢釋懷
透過這樣的生命事件吸取經驗 繼續學習長大
雖然還是無法如我想像般美好的對待你
手足無措 笨拙的故意忽略 心中卻清晰的感覺著 你的存在

我喜歡的那時候的你 因為你的努力
已經不存在世界任何一個角落
看著你關於過去的自己和現在的自己對話著 嘆息著
在生命曾經交集的一瞬間
我勇敢過
　

心のうた

聽 ” 夏の思い出 ” 想和心愛的人一同乘車出遊 在夏日的海灘上 談一場甜美晴朗的戀愛
聞到了夏天的味道 印象中透過窗戶的陽光 空無一人的街道 貪戀自由的步伐向前走著
或許只存在破碎的記憶之中
...夏の思い出　手をつないで　歩いた海岸線
車へ乗り込んで　向かったあの夏の日
なんて思い出して　感じるこの季節が
来るたび思い出してる　思い出せる

聽 ” 1/3の純情な感情 ” 我的理智對它毫無印象 我的情感卻在心裡靜靜的唱和著
...壊れるほど愛しても　１／３も伝わらない
純情な感情は空回り　I　love　youさえ言えないでいる　My　heart

聽 ” 鳥の詩 ” 觸動心中最深的痛楚 我卻不知道它的本體是什麼
現今仍無法展翅高飛的鳥 也希望有海神般的堅強

聽 " Book of Days " 循環遞嬗宛若生命樂章的歌聲中 在變動不安的時代與你相遇
我寫下我的歲月之書 你說永遠不該放棄嘗試 也許我的夢想 就在far&away

在歌曲中穿梭 很多很多深埋的過去映見很多很多正要開始的未來
在感到觸動時 別急著否認 我的堅強與我的脆弱之處
在去年夏天的圓夢之旅(?)和書瑾在新宿唱了六小時的歌
流轉的歌曲以及情緒 以為想要做個交代
結果所有發生的過去這樣融合進化無法分割 成為了現在的我
從來不存在某處的少女 迷失在人群裡
雖然和自小憧憬的"大人"有所不同 但是在這城市中 有"我"站在這裡
23歲的我

another cold night in March

[I try to recover...but it's a different writing now]

I feel desperate and tired
See! that's exact the feeling I got last friday
At Friday we meet ,it was a pleasant date but it seems not so anymore.

After the meeting, though it started raining I still decide to ride my scooter home.
Taking off the coat, putting on my jacket,
I look more like a normal girl other than a graceful one.
With the cold wind blowing my face,I started to feel alive and really fresh.
Why should I try to pretend try to be someone I'm not yet
Do I do it out of pressure ? out of my own will? for you or for me?or for the one I thought might care?
It means nothing.....right ? No one cares ....it means nothing to anyone except me
Though I have little expectation you might notice.......
You are a perfect living your perfect life
and WHAT ABOUT ME? WHAT ABLOUT ME?
...........though I know you didn't care about me in any single day.........

I should stop murmuring and complaining
stop thinking about you talking about you
keep from the chance that we meet
but the most effective way is
how can I get over you?

how?

I start to believe that computer is made by evil engineers to control and dominate the world
It must be so because....I really want to cry.....
HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN? >_________________<
I created my first english writing tonight.
it's about complaining of the one I just can't get over...
I tried very hard for my slow typing and the those uncertain spelling words...
When I finished,I press the publish bottom and BOOM!
a explorer error then the whole writing DISAPPEAR........

I feel ridiculous and shocked.......HOW?WHAT?
but it did happen
where's my writing? my first writing?
I believe there must be millions of people ever meet such problems
a computer error , a sudden blackout
and then people's import homework , graduation essay BOOM!
there's not much to do except crying and doing it again desperately
Such pressure and desperation kills !
Maybe many of us all be dead of this but no one really cares?
And no one thought of it as a situation that need to be improved
Oh those computers and their engineers!