在我的心中總是唱著eeee, electricity。
經過了這麼多，我回到小時候的房子裡。
在聖誕節早上，我得到聖誕禮物。
就這麼剛好在公車停紅燈時看著路邊，在路邊撿了一台捷安特腳踏車，下班後牽著腳踏車尋找腳踏車行，在五里霧中，看到模糊的高樓，閃亮的新市鎮彷如怪獸，實在很難說出當時超現實的感受，一路之隔是舊市區和新大樓，放學後的孩子也走在霧中。
新開的機車行，是親切的老闆和老闆娘，兩個人開起一家店，用技術掙活，為我拯救了腳踏車。
但此時已是一片黑暗又大霧，在黑暗的工業區道路騎腳踏車、過馬路，在汽車和大車的夾縫中騎著紅線，生怕被從後面撞上，心驚膽戰，到達腳踏車架尋找空位，走進越南雜貨店尋找鎖頭，和宇威對話躲開雨霧，在霧中尋找鎖頭。
一切既是新的，又好像deja vu。
彷彿過了很久，我又擁有了一台腳踏車，蹲下跪在地板上打氣，鎖上車子。
謝謝上帝拯救skeptical and distrutful的我
How do you feel good about yourself?
It can be very simple.
I learned something. I made something.
I had meaningful, enjoyable moments comfortably with family and friends, with people.
These moments are fragile, but also durable, lasting and persistent.
I feel so free and calm than ever.
Perhaps that's exactly the meaning of Christmas. Not for those beautiful decorations, commercial events, fancy parties, big feasts but have peace in mind. Memories shine glittering, dazzling - with my daughter's poop which I helped her clean, her first triumph in finishing her meal without dropping much, my mother's clumsiness and my father's bad tempers.
新開的機車行，是親切的老闆和老闆娘，兩個人開起一家店，用技術掙活，為我拯救了腳踏車。
但此時已是一片黑暗又大霧，在黑暗的工業區道路騎腳踏車、過馬路，在汽車和大車的夾縫中騎著紅線，生怕被從後面撞上，心驚膽戰，到達腳踏車架尋找空位，走進越南雜貨店尋找鎖頭，和宇威對話躲開雨霧，在霧中尋找鎖頭。
一切既是新的，又好像deja vu。
彷彿過了很久，我又擁有了一台腳踏車，蹲下跪在地板上打氣，鎖上車子。
謝謝上帝拯救skeptical and distrutful的我
How do you feel good about yourself?
It can be very simple.
I learned something. I made something.
I had meaningful, enjoyable moments comfortably with family and friends, with people.
These moments are fragile, but also durable, lasting and persistent.
I feel so free and calm than ever.
Perhaps that's exactly the meaning of Christmas. Not for those beautiful decorations, commercial events, fancy parties, big feasts but have peace in mind. Memories shine glittering, dazzling - with my daughter's poop which I helped her clean, her first triumph in finishing her meal without dropping much, my mother's clumsiness and my father's bad tempers.
Everything fades,
but love persists.
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(ChatGPT translates)
你如何讓自己感覺良好？
這可以是非常簡單的。
我學到了些什麼。我做了些什麼。
我和家人、朋友，與人們一起度過了有意義且愉快的時光，感到輕鬆自在。
這些時刻是脆弱的，但同時也堅固、持久，並且持續存在。
我比以往更加自由和平靜。
也許這正是聖誕節的真正意義。不是那些美麗的裝飾、商業活動、華麗的派對或盛大的盛宴，而是內心的平靜。記憶熠熠生輝，閃亮奪目——就像我幫女兒清理的小便便、她第一次成功地吃完飯而沒有掉太多、我母親的笨拙以及我父親的壞脾氣。
一切都會褪色，
但愛卻會永存。
