As it is

i do envy if i don’t get the most valued item. but actually i got the best for me.
what i need most, is not what i want most.  
i may rationalize it. but i am the only one who matters to make the judgement about my life.

no need to afraid. you are here to experience “life” as a human being. 
當一切都在空中飛舞的時候，或許會覺得難以掌控，但盡可能地抓住一角後，其他物體就有了座標。

i do learn things which i didn’t know and enjoy some parts of the environment as i expected before.   
like the cool night, the trees and the campus. 

be grateful for what i got in my life, for the people around me.
with all my love.